where is the true happiness??????

How many times you were really happy? You were happy when a girl accepted your proposal or you were happy when you got your first job or you were happy when you fly first time!!! I don't see any true happiness in those things whenever i sit alone i always find myself alone and isolated......they asked me why you work so hard while you know they are not gonna give you extra amount .......i always reply them i don't have any work there at my room but honestly speaking i feel alone there. When come to me and its nice what you developed , pls resolve this problem its on priority i really feel good but just for a moment . I just got star performer of the month and i can remember the day when one of senior told me told you are not fit person for SAP , thank to him i told him one day i'll be like you or may be better than you ........i am still working on it . My new phase of the same assignment is about to start and this time i am planning go for kill ........need to learn so many technical as well as business also ...........sai baba pls help me.........